Thursday Blues?

It has been quite some time I haven't update my blog...actually it's d same old day...the routine daily activities....I have no time to lepak at home/cook for dinner/watch tv with hubby/reading magz or book....Why??? b'coz I have classes 4x a week except on Friday....can u imagine?drive frm the office then about 40/45min speeding frm office to shah alam sec.17....arrived around 6.45/and ends about 10pm...n worst on wed class starts at 7.45pm and ends around 10.30pm...what do expect?drive again back home and arrived around 11.00pm....arrived home feeling very very tired... zzzZZZ

This week I hardly see my hubby, because he's workin' night shift...Ayu asked Mai? ko x takut ke sunyi ke? yup! at 1st mmgla...then I got used to it...coz sampai2 jek umah dah nampak katil jek...This is what I have to go through to get my degree....sacrifice... but does my sacrifice worth it? I don't know just yet....coz I have lots n lots of papers to take and to resit...Ha ha ha....failed 2 papers already...didn't I learnt my lesson..?being expelled and have to appeal?emmm yup...maybe for a while I did, but after being too exhausted...I felt fed-up to go to class...too many presentations...assignments....n projects!!!! can't they leave me in peace???

I'm proud of my hubby, I think guys are better with studies, I mean he didn't look pressure at all...and he don't have any paper to repeat....last time my wish is that I gain a degree but now I hope my hubby got the degree first and hopefully that with his degree....our standard of living will be improve for our kids....

From I was a little girl, I dreamt of being a housewife...funny huh? emm I love sitting at home, decorating my house, cook and sent my kids to school? why??? people must say I'm crazy..but that was what I want...maybe teach tuition at home so I have some income...I feel that the best way to take care of the kids is we grow up with them...being there every step they take....when they learn to walk, the first word spoken from their mouth....i wish I can experience that....My mother is a career woman, she has to work to make sure our life are better......it makes me proud to have a mother who's active in sports n very independent...but sometimes how I wish she could be at home and waited for us at home when we come back frm school...thats why my mom seldom scolded us b'coz she feel that her time at home is not that much...maybe some of us feels vice versa, watching yr mother at home all the time with all the house chores and seeing her nagging at all times u think you want to work and be a career woman instead of being like her....but somebody who's been raised up that both parents are workin' like me, wish that my mother will not hv to work and gotta be at home with us the kids...instead of the maid at home...

Facts of life, in a modern world both parents have to work unless we married a very rich guy then you can just relax at home....Heheheheh....until now my mother is still working coz my brothers are still small...pity her...my father had started his business in insurance... both of them are getting older now...luckily with the buss. my father dont feel stress..he can do it whenever he's free...and..my mom can't wait for her retirement soon...so that she can sit at home and relax....one of the reason having a degree was to proof to my brothers that I can do it...and be a good example...my 2nd brother did broke my parent's heart into pieces but hope the others can be better in studies and succeed in life so that my parents will be happy... don't know whether my wish will come true or not..?

I'm not perfect, but I know that I love my family so much....so that all of us can live happily ever after....Amin...