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My little girl turned 7 months last Friday...I waited for that moment to come, to celebrate her latest milestone...however fate was not by my side...my darling was down with fever a day before she's 7 months old...she was never sick before and now the time has come and it is not just a normal fever...sigh..... probably because I can't BF her anymore...this is due to my nite classes that my BM reduces and finally no more...so mommies, if u're BF keep on giving coz u'll regret when you face this kind of situation...the trick is when you goes to work you have to keep on pumping and let it be empty so it can be refill again...insyallah for my second child I will try to keep on BF until my baby is 1 or 2 yrs old...

I took MC that day and take EL the next day since I was so worried to see her like that...eventhough I have a maid but I want to be near her and monitor her progress....I was shocked when me and hubby brought her to see the Doctor that her temperature went up to 38.9 degrees celcius...the Dr. put a medicine in her butt...it looks scary but the Dr. convinced me that she uses a lubricant and it is just like soap...it can reduces our baby's temperature...yup it works...Syasya looks better after an hour or so....however sad enough that her temperature went high again when it comes to morning....plus purging and vomitting.

At the first place , it's easy at the when Papa gave Syasya medicine because Papa is alert enough to see her open her mouth and shoot the medicine in...Later when Papa went off for training, my maid n me have a hard time giving her medicine coz she's clever enough to push our hand away when she saw me or my maid with the syringe. Worst scnenario is she will struggle till she's tired and towards the end vomit the medicine back.....she also doesn't want to drink milk and keep vomiting after drinking the milk or after taking her medicine...I can't bear looking at her crying...she will say....ma....mam...ma...with a very weak voice that she doesn't want to take the medicine anymore...

It breaks my heart to see my little darling suffer...I know it's part & parcel of being a mommy but I cant bear seeing her crying ...thought of bringing her to hospital but my FIL ask me to wait for Papa to come back from Lumut. Syasya temperature also is stable just that it will went high during 5am and above....hope tomorrow her temp will not increase anymore....

Ya Allah...kesian la kat my little baby nie...do answer my prayer and let her be well again...
I took MC today since I also feel a bit feverish....it looks like I'm getting a sore throat n probably a flu....Sms'ed my boss, he understands and luckily he's also away for training...So it's now about 5 days Syasya is sick and I hope she will fully recover soon....Pray to God that she will gets better and I am willing to be sick and not her...yup I think God heard my prayer coz I hv started coughing today...Papa will be back from training and he will also make feel better coz I need him in difficult times like this, luckily I was not send to training as well coz I've moved to HQ, if not who will look after our little girl??? yeah there's always 'blessing in disguise'....

Tomorrow I have to go work....really can't bear to leave my darling to go to work...will miss the moments with her...now she's so close with me and doesn't want to let go of me, when I went to my room to pray or take a bath, she will crawl to my room...oh Syasya....Please don't make Mama worry anymore ye sayang....