Tuesday, March 04, 2008

What lingers in my head...

Myself

I'm now entering the 14th week of my pregnancy...It's been a while that I've posted anything in my blog/FP, been so lazy lately...felt like i don't wanna do a thing, felt like I want to sleep all day long...I don't have mood to talk, especially waking up to go to work...every morning has become a torture for me...imagine! if you give me money to go shopping pon i don't think i will enjoy it...i've become so 'pemalas'...nasib baiklah bab main-main ngan Syasya n layan dia tgk tv tu boley la diteruskan lgk...however I'm forcing myself to change...however i will still attend b'day parties if Syasya & Co are invited...I will try to mingle and enjoy!!!

My Lil' Girl-Syasya Arina

Syasya semakin cheeky...dia skrg dah 1year and 10mths++, dah besar dah anak Papa & Mama nih...Syasya skrg makin manja ngan Mama + semua orglah...pandai amik hati, penyayang, kalo orang nangis dia bagi tissue, kalo Mama kata Mama sakit kelam kabut angkat bekas minyak/ubat2 dia utk bagi Mama, siap sapu sekali, yg tak tahan tu dia akan sibuk nak sapu mopiko/vicks kat kaki dia gak konon2 kena gigit nyamuk...Bila Mama amik ngamuk, bukan aper Mama takut terkena mata, masuk dlm mulut ker.....semenjak dua menjak ni baru selera makan balik, dulu mmg susah nak makan...dah berisi sikit balik...sgt suker tgk Mickey Mouse Club House...Elmo, Barney, Banana in Pyjamas dan macam-macam lagi...kata my maid, Syasya ni baik, kat umah selalu golek2 tgk tv, main toys dia dan tak byk ragam, dia cuma buat akal bila Mama balik jer...huhuuu sajer nak manjer ek? ok lah Sayang...Mama layankan jer....mmmmuah buat sayang bucuk Mama nih...

My maid


Another reason that I need to move my lazy bum is my maid will go back for holiday about a month from 10/3-6/4...pray to Lord that she'll be back...heard a lot of cases that maid go back for good...however we did make a deal with her that I keep some of her money as a deposit...once she's back, we will give the balance to her...she decided to continue her contract for another year...

Alhamdulillah, so far she's been very good to me & family, especially to Syasya Arina...i remembered before we decided to take a maid, how scared and worried i am...berkat doa parents & PIL...org yg kami sama2 pilih mmg baik dan amat sayangkan Syasya. That is the most important thing. People said don't trust your maid 100%, yup although how much i love her, I try not to show and still do some spotchek once in a while, tp setakat ni tak penah kantoi...infact Syasya really love her, sejak pantang mmg dia x penah berenggang ngan bibik. I even felt jealous at one point of time, masa tu I had to attend classes 4 x a week and got the chance to see Syasya late at night, masa tu rasa misrable sgt. Ye lah sbb kdg2 dia tido pon dia still nak my maid, eventhough that time I did BF Syasya...

Alhamdulillah now that I've completed my studies, I got to spend a lot of time with Syasya...and now during my 2nd pregnancy Syasya is so clingy with me...semua Mama, Mama...kalo dlm keta pon nak dok kat dpn ngan Mama...skrg ni dah xde jealous dah ngan my maid, lgpon one of my friends advised me that biar ramai org sayang anak kita, kita jgn dengki, biar hidup dia penuh ngan kasih sayang...bukan sayang kat parents jek...my friend tu hantar anak dia kat babysitter, org Melayu kita yang xde anak, babysitter dia sayang anak dia cam sayang anak sendiri. Dia kata dia x jealous, tapi rasa lega dan rasa bertuah sbb bila dia pi keje ada org yg treat anak dia nicely...sejuk hati bila dengar my friend cakap camtu...tapi mmg walopun Syasya dah nak masuk 2 thn, dia penah demam teruk sekali jek...itupun masa tu Papa pi training, yg lain tu demam biasa, Alhamdulillah, syukur sgt, may be dia serasi ngan my maid n my maid jaga dia ngan baik...skrg ni risau, takut Syasya akan demam rindukan bibik, tapi mmg dah byk kali cakap n remind kat Syasya yg bibik akan balik kg...hopefully she understands...Syasya, b strong key...


Last month, my maid received a bad news...her mom just passed away, dah nak dekat sgt dia blk...she collapsed in front of me, cried so loud...she repeated this "mak saya x tunggu saya...dia tak tunggu saya balik...." at that point of time aku terkedu dan aku teringat kata2 aku kat N, ptg tu...dia tanya bibik ko sambung x? i replied, dia nak cont setahun jek pastu dia nak balik jaga mak dia, mak dia dah tua, lainlah kalo mak dia dah xder"....Ya Allah, aku x mintak n tak doa pon biar mak dia pergi supaya dia ley jaga anak2 aku...aku pon sedih, tapi aku x tau nak wat aper, aku pegang2 jek bahu dia, gosok2, bila dah lama sikit aku pon gagahkan diri, peluk dia n cakap aku dah anggap dia cam keluarga...masa tu Syasya sibuk amik tissue, nak lap2 air mata bibik...aku pon sebak...tapi aku cakaplah "ajal maut tu kat tgn Tuhan, kalau dia nak tarik dia tarik bila2 masa dia suka, Tuhan sayangkan mak dia...dia kena redha, terus aku pi amik Yassin bagi kat dia...mmg dah x lama dah dia nak blk, dah mcm2 dia plan nak bagi mak dia...

Apapun kali ni kalo dia betul2 x balik aku redha, mungkin rezeki kami setakat ni jek, tapi kalo dia balik Alhamdulillah, dia pon ckp surely dia akan miss Syasya, anak2 dia dah besor, the only problem is dia masih ada sorang anak yg cacat, takut dia x sampai hati nak tinggalkan anak dia yg itu, apapun aku tawakal jeklah...for sure mula2 aku akan tunggang terbalik kat umah sbb dah biasa blk umah layan Syasya and my maternal blues jek...dahlah my maid rajin tlg massage kepala, badan n kaki sejak pregnant nih...i will definitely miss her...sob sob...tapi aku kena sedar, sampai bila dia ley serve my family, sooner or later dia akan blk jugak...

My auntie

(My Auntie-Cu is the one wearing yellow tudung)

My youngest Auntie, Cu, baru2 ni xley bangun, dia kena slipped disc, dah dkt sebulan lebih dia terlantar nak bangun even to sit pon very painful, x boleh nak angkat badan langsung, dahlah anak2 kecik lagik...youngest baru 5yrs old, the cause of the incident sbb dia angkat buku2 teks yg byk kat sekolah, mind you, she's a teacher, dia mmg jenis rajin, walopun dah x larat, dia still buat jugak, a few other reasons was dia penah jatuh a few times already...impact dia may be lambat...skrg dia x boley bangun langsung, naik ambulan pon x larat naik wheelchair, kena naik strecher, bila dtg visit dia sure dia akan nangis-nangis, nak pi toilet pon kena papah, now my grandma & my aunt yg dulu kena stroke tu yg jaga dia, my aunt-mak nyah masih x boleh gerak sebelah tgn but she can cook and my grandma tlg tgkkan cucu2 dia...mmg rasa kesian sgt kat Cu, she's so young, dia dah berubat byk tmpt and dah buat fisiotheraphy beberapa kali, worst come to worst kena operate...aku pon sedih sgt, plan nak ke Langkawi bln 5 ni pon terpaksa dibatalkan...takper asalkan Cu cpt sembuh...Cu ni mmg yg plg rapat ngan aku, dia org kuat aku setiap kali aku buat majlis...byk tolong aku dari sblom sampai dah kawin...Cu i wish you speedy recovery and all the pain will go away... hope to see you back on your feet...I love you..."janganlah nangis lagi....", dear friends, please pray that my auntie will recover soon...

Wisdom tooth

I've problem with my wisdom tooth, why lah they called it wisdom tooth, dah lah menyusahkan...why don't they called it, 'troublesome tooth' ker....grrrr...dari dulu aku mmg takut nak jumpa dentist, thats why aku make a point jaga gigi aku baik2, sepanjang 29thn ni x penah tampal gigi, tak penah sakit gigi...tapi sejak kedatangan gigi bongsu ni...aku menderita, smlm makan kuah rojak, camne ntah kacang tu terselit kat situ...adoi....sampai arini aku rasa bengkak...nak operate dah terlambat esp tgh pregnant...terasa cam isi kat bghn gigi bongsu tu...irritating betoi...rasa nak demam pon ader....

Ipoh

(Syasya with Atok)

We went back to Ipoh recently, it has been a while...Atok dah rindu kat Syasya...tak byk aktiviti coz we just lepak kat umah...rehat...Papa mmg menantu kesayangan sbb menantu lelaki sorang...so Mak mmg layan Papa first class, nak makan aper, nak minum aper..aiyoyor...Syasya mmg rapat ngan Atok, asyik mintak 'kong' jek...Opah pon rajin layan Syasya, main bola campak2 kat dinding pakai badminton racket tuh, mintak2lah Syasya ikut cam Opah...jadik sportwoman, x cam Mama...Abah cam biasa, really understanding, thanks Mak coz update Abah about our problem...I'm lucky to have them as my parents...love them so much...mmmuah!

In conclusion, a lot of things happened around me recently...just that I'm so busy to update, what I'm hoping right now is I'm able to cope with Syasya & the house chores while bibik is away..."Papa, don't forget to lend me a helping hand....one more thing, million thanks to Yana for agreeing to look after Syasya this one month...you're no doubt the best choice..memula mmg nak antar Syasya kat JB, tp Mama x tahan menanggung rindu, waloupun akan menyenangkan Mama & Papa, tapi x sanggup nak berjauhan ngan Syasya....Insyallah Syasya will be able to adjust herself at Yana & Azmi's hse...harap Ain & Effy sudi terima Syasya sementara waktu...Amin...

p/s: Filla, hope u're satisfied with the updates...aku type apa yg berlegar2 kat kepala aku jek, gambo kemudian k?eheheh.....

11 comments:

Miss Moon said...

Mai , lama tak sembang ngan Mai sebab mai tak ley nak YM kalau tak mesti tetiap hari kiter borak kan , wah udah 14 minggu ..nanti kejap je minggu ke minggu tapi bila dah 30 weeks ++ nih cam lambat plak masa berjalan hahahah cam tak sabar nak tunggu baby kuar tapi dalam tak sabar tew takuts takuts pun ada .

Mai sangat untung sebab dapat bibik yg baik cam bibik Mai . Moon pun suka sangat kat bibik . Nampak dia caring sangat bukan setakat kat mai ngan syasya malahan kat semer org dia baik sgt . Betul kawan mai ...betul kata kwan mai , baik kiter letak kat org yg sayang kan anak kiter atleast ada org lain yg jaga anak kiter sama cam kiter jaga anak sendiri . Bagus la nanti Mai antar Syasya kat Yana . Yg pasti nye tiap ari Mai ley tgk syasya .

Mai , my autie pun moon panggil Chu . Ingat tak ari tew moon kata nak gie lawat dia kat hosp . Sian dia mai 2 3 bulan tak ley makan tak ley minum sampai tinggal tulang ...sedey sangat . Masa moon sampai kat hosp ..baru je salam dia moon dah nangis giler2 . Tak baik kan nangis cam tew . Tapi nak wat cam na mmg tak tertahan sebak nya . Sebab dia mmg rajin layan moon masa moon ngan adik kecik kecik dolu ..the best auntie . Skrg dia plak sakit tenat ...sedey la . harap my Chu n ur Cu akan cepat sembuh kan .

Mai , gigi bongsu tew mmg kaco sket moon dekat setahun baru kuar habih ...

Mai jgn wisau ..i know u can manage Syasya n d house . Memula mmg payah tapi lelama mesti ok n buley follow the tune , mmg penat sikit but im sure zaimi pun akan banyak bantu mai . Masa preggy nih mmg cepat penat nya mai ...tempered pun cepat je naik hik hik cam isk mmg slalu gaks kena . Sutan slalu ingat kan jgn marah marah kena banyak sabar time2 cenggini . Moon pun tak banyak cakap sgt kat opis ..bila ada hal penting baru ckp kadang banyak ckp terlepas ckp plak kan ...so baik diam je ekekkeke .


Mai nanti kalau bibik tak der bowink2 dtg ar umah .Jgn layan perasaan sgt tau . Masa awal awal cam nih mmg mood swing nyer lain macam sket

Anonymous said...

mama.... nanti bibik takde abang tolong la apa yang patut...kite buat sesama...ok...

love u...

Filla said...

wahh panjang giler komen moon.habis aku baca!! kuakak..pastu tgk komen zaimi..auww..pendek giler..tp meaningful giler babs!! gud zaimi.. mcm tuler...baru ler mai cayang celalu..huahahha..
aku pon rindu kat ko mai.. dapat balas2 email pon dah kira mcm chat kan? oklah dari takder..nanti kiter lepas geram ahad nie yeh?.. byk tul mender jadik lately ni yer mai.. sian bibik.. x der rezki nak tgk mak dia..sure dia sedih.. ko pon konfem sedih..ko kan kuat sebak..tp tulah..hidup ni mmg kene tabah..kalo tak leh jatuh kita..
pasal Cu ko tu mai..yg selalu datang umah sewa kita dulu kan? aku ingat lagi dia..yg kita bawak anak2 dia gi umah aku kat ampang..ko ingat tak? laa hai..sian nyer Cu.. mende jadi kadang tak disangka.. sekelip mata je.. kita sesama lah doa moga Cu cpt sembuh..send my regards to her..
nak hanto syasya gi umah yana tu aku pon sokong.. at least ko x jumpa syasya time keje jer.. balik keje ko leh jumpa dah..kalo anto johor pon jauh..nanti syasya rindu ko..ko pon lagi lah..kang bahaya plak ko nak travel everyweek.. so dah ada solution.hope ko & zaimi happy salu...
ok ler mai.. take care!!!
*miss u and syasya a lot..

Miss Moon said...

Bagus nyer Papa Syasya ...
betul kata nko Filla , pendek tapi mmg betul2 bermakna ....mai jgn lupa print tampal kat peti ice ehehheheh sebagai reminder hhuk huk kejam tak idea kiter ...hahhahah just kiddin .

Filla said...

heheh..kijam kan moon..
mai..comelnyer ler syasya dok pakai gaunnn kat gazebo tu..siap ko nanti..aku nak tonyoh2 pipi dier..patut ler anak aku pon geram nak kisss dia jek..hahahah

kruy® said...

nice to see pics of ur parents, dah lama tak jumpa mereka. ur dad looks great, tell him that ok and kirim salam kat mereka ya? :)

fyi, our botanic house is going to sell, dah ada orang booking, family will move to Puchong somewhere mid year, parents also bought a house in Ipoh Garden (oh yes, Ipoh! now i will again have a kampung to go home to), so parents will be either kl or ipoh.

remember my koi fishes? they gonna go to my dad's friend who have a dug-up pond, not sure when though but very soon. so do come and visit if u have time, bring Syasya come and see the fishes before they'r gone. kalu u nak pokok bunga marilah ambik :)

Anonymous said...

mai,
kesian baca kisah bibik tu.. and hopefully she'll come back.

syasya mmg anak emak la..tengok stail posing mak & anak.. nampak sama aje hehehe..

...$weE+ 666... said...

ha ah, sama la posing mai dgn syasya tu... cute sgt! geramnyer, kat dedua skalik... hehehe...

kesiannyer baca pasal bibik. tetiba zz pon rasa sebak. al-fatihah utk arwah. send my condolences to ur bibik ye mai. smoga dia tabah dan kuat. *hugs* sweet sgt syasya hulur tisu, clever girl! mmg dah bleh jadik kakak sangat dah tu...

mai, u r one lucky woman, do u know that? i'm so touched reading that '3 line words' from zaimi. really sweet of him! ur sooo blessed to have zaimi, syasya, bibik, ur parents, ur frens and everyone around u. we love u too much, do u know that? :)

we r sooo blessed in ways we may never even know, mai. if we can still hold up our head with a smile on our face and r truly thankful, we r blessed because the majority can, but most do not.

mender2 kecik tu sbenarnyer 'simple test' jer nak tengok kita cemana... supaya kita tak alpa... supaya kita sentiasa ingat... mesti ada cara utk kita hadapinya dgn sgala kekuatan yg ada. kalau sumer mender pon dipermudahkan, kita akan mudah lupa dan tak bersyukur. zz percaya Allah sentiasa beri kita ruang. kita jer kena fikir dan usaha utk nampak apa yg sbenarnyer tertulis utk hidup kita... cewah! zz ni ckp jer pandai... huhuhu...

but when we come to really look at it, we actually have less to complain. Allah has blessed the union of mai & zaimi with a beautiful syasya arina, bringing joy into ur life kan... and another one coming soon!!!

wisdom tooth tu mmg susah nak komen la, zz pon kalau sakit gigi abis sumer kuar pelbagai bahasa yg tak spatutnyer kuar... *wink* sabar ek mai... nanti ok la tu...

can't wait to c u & syasya this coming SUPER SUNDAY la mai... up up and away!!!~ *zassssssssssss*

Azie Rad said...

Mai, Entry mai kali ni tersentuh azie...ada rasa gembira ada rasa sedih...but whatever happen...mai tetap bertuah sbb ada suami yg soooo loving....dan syasya permata hati ulam jatung.

Setiap hidup ni mesti ada dugaan. Dugaan ni membuat kita menjadi lagi kuat utk mengharungi hari seterusnya. Dan hidup ni jugak mesti ada masa ups n down...mcm roda.

Mai ni bagus arr...kalau ada prob boleh luahkan dlm blog...tak mcm azie...suka simpan sendiri...susah nak luahkan...wish I can be like you...huhuhu.

nadya.s said...

mai!.
good to see u today @ menaraTM.

and we didnt get to berborak panjang. good that u share stories here.

ur bibik sound like a good bibik, alhamdulillah. apapun, always be careful yer.

and dont worry bout running the household n ur 2 baby. u hv a great husband yg nad tau,akan tolong mai run the household. he love u too much, he will do all he can to make u less stress.. hehe! kan zaime kan??

tq for comment@ my blog earlier. hehe, ramai eh ckp dia macam FH. sangging dagu dia tu la kot.

i feel good too. miss u too my friend. a lot! bighug!! ~ kiss2 to syasya.

Lenny said...

wah.. ramainyer dah comment panjang...

dalam banyak2... lenny suka comment zaimi... short and sweet...best... and you're lucky to have him..

lenny doakan mai ok.. and bibik akan balik semula... sayang kan.. sbb susah nak dapat bibik yg ok dan baik...

good luck on ur pregnancy.. may everything went smooth for u and family..

kiss syasya for me ya...

and mai, thanks... for being my friend.