Life goes on...

Our last picture together....I wish this was just a dream but it happened...our dear maid went back for good...a reality that is very difficult to swallow...but life goes on...
it was a very sad moment for us...She woke up early that day, bathed Aqil and Syasya...emm when we arrived at LCCT i can feel that I'm the one who will fall in tears...I hugged her tightly and said "Saya sayang bibik, saya dah anggap mcm keluarga...she cried too...I think she said she love me and my kids too...masa dia dah naik escalator pon aku tak henti-henti cakap aku sgt berterima kasih kat dia sbb jaga anak-anak aku dengan baik sepanjang 3 thn ni...masa tu usah ckplah aku dah nangis, dia pon nangis...last-last Syasya yg rilek pada mulanya pon nangis bila tengok bibik nangis...dia meraung-meraung cakap "Syasy sayangggg bibik...." aku pon ckplah aku pon sayang....jenuh nak pujuk...nasiblah nampak ada McD pancing dia ngan ice cream dia diam kejap...Dlm keta tiba2 nangis balik carik bibik..then bila nampak aeroplane Mama pon explain tu bibik dah naik aeroplane blk umah dia jumpa anak-anak dia...then bila masuk dlm cloud Syasya pon dah diam sikit...then kami singgah breakfast kat Rest. Mak Teh....mkn jap sbb Syasya ada kelas kat tumbletots pagi tu, nasib dia happy kat situ and terlupa kejap pasal bibik..yang haru sikit, sampai-sampai kat umah dia bole pegi bilik bibik and panggil-panggil bibik, trying her luck konon-konon bibik pegi kejap jek and may be dah ada kat umah...dia terdiam bila xde and then aku recap balik ckp bibik dah balik Indon....skrg Syasya dah x tanya Bibik, I think she understood...Aqil for the first few days mcm2 tercarik-carik gak that familiar face but now he's okey...

Currently my Mak dtg dari Ipoh and jaga cucu-cucu dia...kesian Opah terpaksa sacrifice kelas agama dia dan terpaksa tinggalkan suami tercinta and adik aku yg form 4...luckily my Abah pon paham my situation and ckp dia dah approved my mom to be away around 2 weeks...Yong sayang Mak....bila Yong susah Mak mesti ada tolong....what would i do withour her...Sayang Mak....unfortunately Mak nak blk Ipoh this weekend sbb kesian kat adik-adik and my Abah...memula Mak nak bwk Aqil along until our new maid dtg tapi mak ckp Aqil tak mau minum susu formula...tensi ni, dah try s26, snow and Anmum....Actually Mama dah berjaya bagi Aqil fully BM sampai dia 7 bln...but the downside mcmana nak my Mom nak bwk Aqil blk kg kalo dia xmo susu formula? lgpun susu Mama skrg mmg cukup-cukup sahaja untuk hari-hari, xde extra....I think because Im stressed out and have so many things to do....Worst come to worst tumpang hantar rumah jiran...hopefully dia terima untk jaga Aqil ....dah lah dia ada baby lain yg 10months old...tapi mmg dah tengok orang dan rumah mmg sentiasa kemas ......tumpang at least a week then my Mak dtg balik and jaga cucu-cucu dia...

This week I started sending my kids to my neighbour at level 2 at my apartment, Alhamdulillah dia terima jaga anak2 aku untuk seminggu ni....memula my Mom tekad nak bwk blk Aqil tapi sbb he rejected formula milk, terpaksa tinggalkan dia gak kat sini...emm kalo tak sure Mama Aqil yg tak keruan..huhu skrg ni tgh cuba sedaya upaya utk generate BM sbb dah berkurangan, sure sbb tension, kelam kabut x menang tgn antar anak2 rumah orang...nasib x drive ke nursery...kalo x lagik serabut....memandangkan Syasya menangis2 x mo tinggal kat rumah my neighbour, my 3rd brother volunteered to take care of Syasya coz dia mmg x suka dok umah org, kalo kat umah sendiri she's okey...org tu ckp Syasya every 1 hour nangis2 teruk, pastu kesian pulak kat my neighbour coz ada 2 baby yg nak tido terjaga2 dengar suara Syasya nangis....Alhamdulillah smlm dokumen dr Indon dah sampai, hopefully our new maid cpt sampai....doakan yg terbaik utk keluarga kami....Amin....I want my kids to be happy...

Ni video bibik nyanyikan lagu b'day in advance buat Syasya, alamak awat terbalik video ni?emm nantilah mintak Papa betulkan...bln depan 24hb April 2009 Syasya akan cukup 3 thn....masa ni bibik dah tido tapi lepak depan jap teman Syasya tgk tv, dah lewat tgh mlm masa ni, Mama pon take the opportunity rakam intimate moments Syasya & Bibik....emm how I miss my old bibik...aku doakan dia pon bahagia bila dpt bersama keluarga dia semula....