A new journey has just begun!

As some of you all knew, I was instructed to go for practicum as one of the requirement to graduate, quite frustrating coz as part time student, I thought that I won't be involved with practical. My hubby said they were exempted from practical...but in my case, I took something really different from my job scope so I have to actually go and teach, at least for 4 weeks, the full time students have to teach at least 10 weeks...so this is the best they can offer, some of friends last semester got an option to teach adult student at night, so it won't affect the working hours...I'm quite lucky coz my boss understands my situation, he's not that keen but he can tolerate, since I work under him for 5 years++ already...he always supports me if it relates to my study, yang penting I must improve myself...but he said everything is up to me...whether I want to be a teacher/exec sec/ tutor or whatever yg penting I learn to improve myself...Alhamdulillah....he let me go for my practicum, 3 times a week, 2 days for 80 min, and 1 day for only 40min...quite hectic actually, since I have to go in to office first, then go teaching, then come back to office and I'll try to cover the time that I took off...lgpun cuti pon mmg tak byk...

1st day at School

The day that I waited for has finally arrived...went to the school that I was assigned to...one of the Secondary Schools at Shah Alam...Alhamdulillah all the teachers are very helpful...We were given some options at first, I can choose to teach form 1/2 or 4....at first I thougt of teaching form 4 but form 4P..aiyoh last class ma...however I went to both class, the form 4P were much more quiter since they saw a stranger sitting at the back of the class, the form 2D response were overwhelming....before the classteacher introduced me to them, they had already interviewed me...."Teacher, awak ni cikgu baru ke?" alamak...cam kurang ajar pon ada this student, but after I recalled what the HEP teacher told, I just answered,"training teacher", One student said, "kami ni jahat, Cikgu" Trying to recall what the HEP teacher said, "some students bukan kurang ajar tapi their style is like that, their upbringing, walopun kat Shah Alam tapi this area from middle class and below, they do not know how to be courteous"....some are chinese and indians...one Malay student asked the teacher, why we have a new teacher? Emmm this teacher will teach you all for four weeks, she's here to evaluate you....the boy answered "buat apa cikgu? kami kan baik...." emm I just watched and keep quiet...The class teacher remind them to be nice to me....Then I whispered to Pn.E, which class should I take, the form 4 or form 2? she said, the form 2 class is more challenging, it's a good training for you...After she introduced me to the whole class, I make move and in my heart, was filled with anxiety...."boley ke aku ajar bebudak tu ha"...zaman aku dulu budak2 semua baik2 n diam jek bila cikgu cakap kat depan...plus one of the teachers told me that Pn.E baru blk dr MC, dia miscarriage coz stressed and after yelling at one kid, terus tumpah darah....dahlah first child, kesian dia...macam2 bermain di fikiran...risau, takut n mcm2lah...the night before my teaching, I create a lesson plan...alamak, 2 masa, 80minutes ...

1st Lesson

This is my first day of teaching...at the office pulak ada byk keje, then from Jln Pantai, drove all the way to Shah Alam, arrived at the school, the security doesn't want to open the gate, he asked me, "nak buat apa kat dlm?, Saya ni cikgu praktikal..." after d explanation, he let me in...I'm worried, searched for my Mentor, Pn.E, she's not around, alamak she's on MC pulak...what the heck, I gathered all my strength and go the class, heard a lot of noice from 2 Damai, emm tak damai pon...after the bell rang, I went into the class, the student stand up and I saw one of the student sat on the teacher's chair...huh....ni sudah lebih..."Assalamualaikum and Good Morning...they answered, cam typical student jawab siap ada cam one rhythm yg biasa didengar satu ketika dulu...

My lesson plan that day is to teach a poem, about friendship...but before that I asked them to introduce themselves...Its really hard to make talk, masa borak2 kuat pulak suara dorang, bila suh ckp omputih dah sengih2 cam kerang busuk, aku yg suka ckp bahasa rojak ni pon control myself to talk in standard english and fully in english...budak2 pulak nak ckp BM, I just need to know their name, hobby and parent's occupation...I also passed them a piece of paper for them to prepare a 'name tag' so that I can easily call them and asked question, sometimes I feel sad, bila tanya, tak tau mak bapak keje apa...emmm pelik, takkan tak tau...buruh n surirumah in english pon tak tau....I have to be very patient with them coz they take such a long time just to introduce themselves...ada yg tak dengar bijik butir, I did a lot of yelling "garang jugak aku ni", since they're 40 of them...dah satu group diam, ada plak satu group bising....n there's one girl who asked me, "kenapa kena cakap bahasa inggeris cikgu?org inggeris tak yah pon blajar bahasa kita", aku pun jawablah, "their country has already well developed, we need to learn from them, their knowledge", "dulu masa zaman Parameswara, takyah pon belajar Bahasa Inggeris!", aku pun ckp, "So do u want to go back to that era?whereby there's no tv, no computer, no motorcycle..I relate to what she said before, her hobby is riding motorcycle...dia terdiam...pas dah dapat control keadaan I start the lesson and saper yg bising, dia lah yg kena soal....hahaha...berkesan gak cara aku tu....

2nd Lesson

This time I chose to teach them literature "The Phantom of the Opera", I've already checked one of the students exe book, they're familiar with the character n the story....I decided to teach the moral values in the story...First I asked them, a question to trigger their mind..."Is appearance important to you?"...cam terpinga2 sikit, I explain about apperance, physical apperance n etc...ada jawab penting, ada jawab tak...there's one boy name Omar, so funny, dahlah dia pakai 'hairband kuning kat kepala', mmg aku dah suh simpan dah, tp dia kata nanti rambut masuk matalah..itulah inilah....at his nametag he wrote 'Dr.Omar' behind it, he wrote 'Awie'....so when I saw he's still wearing that yellow hairband, I asked him to remove it and answer my question....I usually asked them to answer in full sentence so his answer is "Appearance is not important, what matter is her 'hurt'...hahaha aku mmg nak bantai gelak, plus muka dia yg mmg kelakar...aku maintain n senyum, tp kawan2 dia dah bantai gelak..."Oi...Omar bukan hurt lah, heart!..."....so mmg kelakar..eheheh...aku pun ajarlah...tetiba rasa sonok mengajar, pastu bila dah abih mengajar ada a few yg salam n cium tgn, yg dtg jumpa aku pas abih mengajar, itu mmg menyentuh hati n naluri aku....rasa betapa dihargai oleh budak2 itu....

"The most important thing is never stop questioning"...this quote really emphasized how teachers should be knowledgeable so that he or she will be the centre point for the students to refer to...berat sungguh tanggungjawab seorang guru itu...kita boleh jadi guru yang hanya buat kerja dan tak kisah kalau murid tanak belajar, tapi kerja itu adalah amanah...and I don't want to be that kind of teacher..."

My 3rd lesson

During the last lesson, it was hectic...the weather was so hot...sampai2 sana rasa penat sgt, tp gagahkan jugak pi kelas n teach...bebudak as usual...bising sgt2...then I start my lesson and I used the same trick, anybody who talk will have to answer my question or if they're caught chit chatting, they will be called and stand in front of the class...emmm just that on my 3rd class I've started to help them translate to 'Bahasa' those words that they didn't understand...I shouldn't do that...but seeing how helpless they were, I did translate a few words for them...they begin to response and the ones yg troublesome really look like they're paying attention and participate in class...I have to admit being a teacher is a very challenging job...tabik spring buat cikgu2, kita ingat n fikir senang keje dorang tu, tapi kalo dah campur kokurikulum n admin n bebudak camtu..mmg penat n menduga hati sungguh...apapun this is a very memorable experience...emm skrg mmg sibuk sgt...kalo sempat I will update lagi...ni dah masuk 5x aku mengajar...tapi cuma sempat update 3x jek...k c u soon...skrg school break, dptlah aku concentrate with Ros report n lesson plans..thesis? rasa mmg tak sempat nak siap...aku pasrah kalo kena extend one more sem...